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Monday, May 23, 2005

Mon, 23 May 2005 01:56:58 GMT

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Do You have a crush on me?
[10] Have I ever hurt you?
[11] Would you hug me?
[12] Would you kiss me?
[13] Are you telling me the truth?
[14] Are we close?
[15] Physically, what stands out?
[16] Emotionally, what stands out?
[17] Do you wish I was cooler?
[18] On a scale of 1-10.How nice am I?
[19] On a scale of 1-10.How hot am I?
[20] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[21] Am I loveable?
[22] How long have you known me?
[23] Describe me in one word.
[24] What was your first impression?
[25] Do you still think that way about me now?
[26] What do you think my weakness is?
[27] Do you think I'll get married?
[28] What about me makes you happy?
[29] What about me makes you sad?
[30] What reminds you of me?
[31] What's something you would change about me?
[32] How well do you know me?
[33] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? If yes, then what is it.
[34] Do you think I would kill someone?
[35] If you could give me anything what would it be?
[36] When's the last time you saw me?
[37] Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
[38] Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
[39] Do I have your phone number? If not, write it down here.
[40] Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you?

Monday, May 23, 2005

Mon, 23 May 2005 01:47:35 GMT

"Betonia!! BETONIA! Get Upp!" A voice screamed madly fallowed by loud clanking noises of pots and pans being re-aranged,
"COME ON! I HAVE TO GO!" The voice hollard again, Betonia let out a small laugh running to the edge of the stare case
"Mum! I'm already up! You Can Leave!!" The girl said happily strokeing her recently dyed rather brown but red hair, she dyed it a few days ago so she could show it off to her friends on the first day of school. Betonia waited at the edge of the stare case for a respose from her mother, but the only response she got was a door slamming and the faint sound of the older woman walking off to her car. Sighing softly the young woman shook her head and trailed back to the bathroom only to grab her mother's bag of makeup and apply random peices of makeup. Her mum didn't like her wearing make up, it says it screws up you face. But Betonia, like other pre- teens didn't care much at all, sooner or later she was done and the blue bag was returned to it's original spot. Next was clothing, Betonia wore a rather-large orange tank top with monkeys on it, with a blue pair of jeans that she bought a while ago, a pair of orange and blue shoes and a few gelly bracelets. Ten minutes after she changed she grabbed her back pack and was off to her first day of school in the eigth grade.

It was the second day of school and the young grade eight girl marched down the hall in her blue jeans an orange tank top that supposivley reveild one's clevage, but in this case it just acted as a clothing item as the girl had nothing to show off. The twelve yeared girl skipped over to her locker only to grab the silver lock with a smile. "Thirty Six.. Fifty Four.. Nine" Betonia cheerfully whispered to herself twisting the lock to match up with the numbers only to open up her suprisingly clean locker and shoving her back pack in. Betonia had always been a neat freak, if things weren't clean and tidy she'd flip, it had only been the second day of the new school year and she was already re-aranging her locker as she had no thing else to do. Her friend Mandi was suppose to meet her outside a while ago and give her some of her old clothes, but just like yesterday the supposeive friend woke up late but clearly looked in no rush what so ever. The young teen would have to settle for another one of Mandi's poor excuses again, just thinking about how her beloved friend has changed made Betonia upset which was very rare. Closing her locker and turning around the now rather worried girl sat down with a single sigh and a hmph, it might just be her but the last month she started noticing her friends change. Mandi never called her, Ashes was always talking about bands and music and Taliana was all into depressing poems and shit. What was happening? Betonia though staring down at the ground just as the popular girls walked by, breaking her train of though the anxious girl gave a small wave to Ashley, the most popular girl in school. She had platnum blonde hair down to her shoulders with green eyes and perfect skin. Today she wore army pink tight jeans and a v-neck white shirt, all of course from the high branded store "Galligers". Ashley raised an eye brow at Betonia's gesture searching her mind for something to say with a hidden smirk on her face
"Uhm, Hi Behoeya.. Cute Tank' It's Hot" The popular girl lied and clearly pronounced her name wrong, but there was no protest. Betonia was happy that she was actually talking to her,
"Thanks! I got it at Galligers It tottaly awesome" she replied with a smile twirling her brownish red hair around her fingers trying to be seductive or something causing the second girl Maranda to let out a small giggle. Maranda was the second most popular girl in school, she had dark brown hair down to her waist and wore a white mini skirt with a tink tank and only the most expensive high heeled shoes on the market. Betonia blinked a few times looking at Maranda blushing, she quickly stopped twirling her hair and started talking again.
"Yeah theres a sale going on this week, my mum is getting paid this week and she's going to go out and buy me some new clothes, I think I might get the same pants you got Ashley, they are 'hot' " The girl clearly stated just as her rather late friend Mandi marched over to her with a black grabage bag in her hand, from a distance she chucked the black garbage bag as if it was putred and smelly to Betonia with the look of discust on her face. Walking up to the sitting her with a hand on her hip she spoke rather loudly as if she was trying to get someone elses attention.
"There, happy? Now you have all my old clothes that you've been nagging me for." Mandi practically yelled rudley, Eyeing the two high statused girls finally turning to them after a while as they bothed giggled sadisticly at what happened.
"God, Fricken welfare eh?" Mandi Said to the two girls crossing her arms and walking over to them to stare down at the rather embarassed Betonia. Tears started to form rapidly in the young girls' eyes as she jumped up throwing the bag to the ground and bolted down the stares to the wash room leaving the three rude girls to stand there.
"Woah, What's up with that?" Ashely snickered and asked innocently flipping her hair back over her shoulders, Mandi huffed and rolled her eyes replying to ashleys question
"She'll get over it, on another note.. I absolutley LOVE your shirt Ashely, Its effing Hot.." Ashley and Madi began to talk about clothing while Maranda stood there staring at the entrance to the stare case wondering if they went a little too far.

Tears rolled down the girls cheeks as she stared at herself in the mirror, her poorly applied eyeliner smudged causing raccoon eyes while her foundation started to come off.. Not that she needed it in the first place. She couldn't believe that Mandi would do something like that to her, Betonia thought silently to herself letting out small sniffs and whimpers every so often.. Mandi and her where the best of friends since grade one and never has she ever done anything so mean, She just didn't understand. Sooner or later the tears had stopped and her face was streaked with dry black tears, sighing softly Betonia turned away from the mirror glancing around the bathroom almost like she was looking for someone. She saw the ankles of two girls in one stall and decided to ask out loud.
"Does anyone have any eyeliner I could borrow..." Betonia asked rather weakly but still enough for people to hear, yet there was no response. She let out a frusterated sigh turning back to the mirror beggining to wash the streaks of black tears off her face just when a girl walked in. She had brown curly hair and wore a green shirt that said "Hawiann Punch" On it and casual flared dark blue jean, immediatly Betonia reconized her.
"Hey Tali'" Betonia said, sniffing and continuing to fix her face up, Taliana frowned and decided to skip going to the bathroom to talk to her.
"Hey Bet' whats going on? You look like a mess.." She asked, running a hand through the sniffling girl's red hair..
"Mandi.. I just don't want to talk about it.. I'm fine.. Do you have any black eyeliner.." Betonia said quickly changing the subject, she didn't want it to spread around that aparently she was on welfare. Which she wasn't, she just couldn't buy new clothes 24/7. Tali' Nodded pulling an eye pencil out of her purse handing it to her friend who thankfully took it and began to apply it while Taliana went to the washroom. By the time Tali' was done releiving her bladder Betonia was done applying the eyeliner and looked like her old self just sad. The rather worried friend frowned and let out a small sigh
"Betonia.. Are you sure your fine?" She asked again, resting a hand on the sad girl's shoulder as she nodded giving a fake smile.
"Yes.. I'm fine, Hey, How about I see you in class a bit later and I'll tell you what happened ok?" after a while of conning the protective friend Tali finally agreed to see Betonia later, but before she left she gave Betonia a big hug and a wave goodbye, just as Tali left the two girls came out of the stall.
The first girl to come out had short black hair streaked with red, she had a thick layer of eyeliner on and a cross at the bridge of her nose. She wore a black skirt with red combat boots and a red halter top that said "Fuck" in black letters on it, on one of her wrists where deeply cut scars and wounds that where obviously not from a cat. On her other wrists where large spiked bracelets and gelly bracelets. The second girl wore tight black pants with a black tube top with a few gelly bracelets, on her face was twists and curls and curls and twists of eyeliner down her left cheek, as for her hair? it was tangly blonde down to her shoulders. Betonia winced slightly at the site of the two.. They sort of looked familiar, perhaps they where in her class.. She saw them yesterday taking the same route as her to the class meeting.. But they where a bit creepy for her type so she began to head for the girl until the girl with the short hair spoke.
"Hey. You wanted eyeliner or what." She said, with black eyeliner in one hand and a cigarette in the other, betonia slowly turned around gulping silently, She didn't want to piss them off. last thing she needed was to be a loner in this hell hole.
"Uh guu- guhkm- Yes! Yes please Yes." The nervous girl spat out walking over to the short haired girl reaching out to grab the eyeliner only to see it get pulled away,
"Identify yourself." The girl said harshly taking a drag of her cigarette and handing it to the blonde haired girl, Betonia nodded gulping once again.
"I'm Betonia, I'm In Mr.Casez's Class.. Grade. .Eight.." She awnsered waiting patiently for the eyeliner that she didn't even need, The short haired girl nodded with a smirk.
"Cool, So your in our class. I'm Abiona." Abi Introtuced herself handing the eyeliner to Betonia, She seemed nice.. But so did Ashley And Maranda, and mandi for that matter, so she kept her gaurd up. Taking the eyeliner from the girl Betonia quickly applied the eyeliner to her two upper eyelids and handed it back to Abi.
"Thanks." She said smiling, eyeing the blonde haired girl who hesitantly took a drag of the cigarette only to let out a small cough. Hearing the cough Abi turned to the blonde haired girl and smiled
"Don't Worry hun' You'll get used to it.." She reassured the blonde haired girl for a moment or two then turned back to Betonia with a smile crossing her arms to hide her cut up wrist.
"First time smoker" Abi said just as a group of giggling girls entered the bathroom, at the front of the group was Ashlely, Maranda and of course Mandi. Ashley raised an eyebrow in discust leaning over to Maranda to whispere loudly into her ear.
"Looks Like Welfare Girly' Made friends with the Gothy' girls" Maranda smirked softly as the bunch of girls fell into a laughing fit. Abi growled deeply walking over to the group of girls, they quickly scampered back a few pases, She then stomped her foot harshly then spoke
"You better fuck off or I'll shove those pomp pomps up that tight ass cunt of yours" The dark looking girl fully threatened, more than a few of the girls ran away leaving Ashely, Maranda and Mandi to stand here. Ashley raised an eyebrow and laughed crossing her arms,
"Was that suppose to scare me?" She asked, Abi frowned looking back at the blonde haired girl holding her hand out to her. Immediatly the blonde haired girl shoved her hands into her pockets to pull out a "Yack-Back" and handed it to Abi. Smirking softly Abiona spoke to Ashley again
"Kurts Cheating on you Ashley." The sadistic girl said with a smirk, Ashley let out a small laugh flipping her hand. "Yeah right!"
"Oh?" Abi said pressing the "Back" button on the electronic tool, a sound emitted from it.
"Oh Kurt!!! Ohh! ooooh Kurt! Oh My Ohh!" The Yack Back exclaimed.. You could hear a slight grunting in the background, the voice was never the less.. Cassy, the school slut. Ashley's eyes filled with tears and she stomped her foot in a mad rage
"You won't get away with this Abiona!" She burst out in tears and stomped awayher minions Maranda and Mandi quickly fallowing behind her. The blonde girl smiled passing the cigarette back to Abi with a small sadistic snicker, the rather proud short haired girl took a long drag of the cigarette and put it out turning back to the two girls. Betonia was quite impressed! It seemed that this "Abiona" chick could really scare all those popular girls away. Maybe thats how she wanted to be like, dark and creepy. Betonia was about to go on thinking to herself but was quickly interupted by Abi's voice,
"Amazed?" She laughed with a smirk "Yeah, I scare them pretty good, I can show you tomorrow after school if you want.".. Betonia smiled and nodded happily, maybe now she was finally be accepted.

It was the second day and they where already teaching math, how can they get off like that? Guh, Betonia let out a small sigh resting her head on her desk staring over at her "Ex"- frirned Mandi who was sitting in the back most likly text messaging Ashley. What had happened to her? What was going on? Why was she suddenly being so mean? It was so frusterating she just didn't want to think about it. Her eyes began to travel around the room until it hit her, wasn't Abi' and her blonde haired friend suppose to be in this class? Ugh.. Whatever She just didn't want to think anymore. Betonia sat back up staring blankly at the board as the teach wrote out mat problems, just as he was about to write the fourth math question the door opened and two girls walked in. Abi and her friend, The teacher didn't scowel them but nicley greeted them "Hello There Abi' And Kori." Nothing else, not even a confused look, no questions. Kori gave a small nod to the teacher and made her way down the Ile where Betonia sat Abi' shortly infront of her, Abi sat down in the open seat infront of Betiona since there was no where else to sit. Kori slowly turned to the girl sitting beside Betonia only to stare with the look of discust and anger in her face. Quickly the girl got up grabbing her things and scampered to the front sitting down, the now smiling Kori sat down and looked over at Abi who gave a thumbs up gesture.
"Good job" Abiona whispered with a devious grin to Kori, Kori nodded in thanks and turned back up to the front to stare idley up at the board while The rebelious Abiona rested her red combat boots on her desk pulling out a journal from her book bag only to open it and write in it, Betonia eyed the rebelious girl still staring up at the white board. Mr. Casez was now writting down Algebra questions, usually Betiona was somewhat good with Algebra questions but the questions that he wrote down where just confusing. The confused girl picked up the pencil and began to write one of the questions down on the scrap peice of paper when a ball of paper hit her head and fell to the ground, Betonia immediatly looked at Abi who quickly turned to the front with an innocent smile causing the frusterated teen to shake her head and reach down to grab the peice of paper. Quickly she unravelled it to see if there was anything written down, hopefully there was something writted down, class was so boring, Betonia flattened the peice of paper out on her desk, fourtunatly it did have something written on it.
"Hey Bitch, Kori and I are skippin' Out, Your Coming." Betonia read the note out almost silently to herself with a frown on her face, why did they want HER to come? She was just an aparent welfare whore who naggs too much. Maybe they are setting her up, no that couldn't be right. They have to sort of like her, Well.. Abiona atleast, she let Betonia use her eyeliner and invited her over after school.. I guess they really do wanna' hang out with her. The girl smiled crumpling the note up into a small ball looking at Abi' and nodding, immediatly after Betonia nodded to Abi, Abi nodded to Kori who reacted with a loud groan. The whole class turned to Kori with their eyebrow raised, The groaning girl clutched her stomach and healed over.. "M-mr. Casez.. I Don't feeell Well.." She groaned with a hidden smirk on her lips, the teacher turned around with a concerned look on his face.
"Oh You better go down to the metical room then! Get someone to escort you." The teacher said turning back around to face the board, Abi stood up grabbing Kori's hand.
"I'll escort you Kori!!" She said happily but with fake sympathy, Abi then looked to Betonia who had a very dumb confused look on her face..
"You better come Betto' just incase she faints.." The red/brown haired girl slowly stood up brushing her legs off then jogging after the two girls who where heading to the nearest exit. Betto? Was that her new name? Or was that some kind of sick joke rhyming with ghetto.. And why was she even out here anyways? Skipping school just to hang out with two girls that she wasn't even sure where her friends? That didn't sound like her, but she didn't want to rebel against Abi, No.. She didn't want to be a loner.. Betonia pushed over the two exit doors fallowing the girls out into the court yard, Kori stopped and pulled out a cigarette from her pocket looking a Abiona blankly.
"Gota' Lighter Doll." She asked dully but with a wink, Abiona smiled stopping infront of Kori to plant a small kiss on her lips then digging her hand deep into her book bag pulling out atleast a dozen lighters and passing one to Kori.
"Always hun, Always." Abi Said as Kori smirked lighting the cigarette and popping it into her mouth inhailing it's toxic fumes, except for this time she didn't cough. Abi also placed a cigarette between her lips flicking one of the lighters and egniting the deadly substance while Betonia stared down in amazement at the amount of lighters. She didn't think that stores would sell lighters to people their age mostly because she didn't think anyone at her age would be smoking, she crossed her arms tightly over her chest and idilly stared at Abi thinking until the short haired girl noticed Betonia's brown eyes staring at her.
"What." Abiona said exhailing toxic smoke out through her nose, Betonia began to panic and studder.
"Ah Uhm, I've never seen somebody with so many lighters!" Meaning, I've never seen anybody our age with a lighter. But she couldn't possibly say that unless she wanted to be scolded and hated. Kori turned to the brown eyed girl and smiled taking one last puff of her cigarette before putting it out
"You should see how many she has at home" The blonde hair girl laughed wrapping her arms around the short haired girl's waist resting her chin on her shoulder, Abi smiled and quickly put out her cigarette leaning over to Kori giving her a quick but passionate kiss then turned back to the girl with her arms crossed.
"Yeah, I have alot. All for differant reasons, You can have this one." She said tossing her a lighter, Amazing Betonia caught is. She was never really good at catching things, thats probably the reason why she was getting such a low mark in P.E. not to mention she's adapted because of a leg problem a while back. The lighter was clear red with drawn on black skulls on one side, Betonia stared down at the lighter with a smile.
"Thanks.."

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Wed, 04 May 2005 22:20:59 GMT

I think I might go back to Blurty, I thought I was alone here but I'm obviously not.
No offence.
I know I'm being a hypocrite with my online journal rant but I just like writting out my life then reading it out like I didn't know who the person was. I prefer no one else to read those words. I don't know, or I just go back to being a little fucking fake. Leave me the fuck alone people. Fake mode on.
Omg! Theres a dance this friday, I'm so excited. I'm borrowing one of akansha's halter top. It's pink lace, it's so fucking pretty! I don't have any very nice shirts myself because my mum is a douche cookie Lol. I plan to do my nails pink, my hair up and spiked or my hair down and random peices curled. Black eyeliner, pink eyeshadow, light blue cut up jeans and crap ass shoes. Mmhmm..

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Wed, 04 May 2005 00:16:59 GMT

What the fuck. I think I'm going to cry right now.
Where the fuck are you Elijah?
Aparently he skipped and ran away at lunch today, What the fucking hell? And I'm sitting here freaking out thinking he fucking RAN AWAY. ROSE IS ACTING ALL CASUAL ABOUT IT LIKE, Oh. Yeah. Uhuh. Yeah. Oh, Lol. Then I phone Elijah and BAM HE'S HOME WTF? and he's all acting casual while I'm sitting here ready to burst in to tears. What the hell? IS SKIPPING CASUAL IN THESE FUCKING PEOPLE'S LIVES!? DO THEY FUCKING LIVE TO SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF THEIR FRIENDS!? BETTER YET THEIR GIRLFRIEND!? WHAT THE FUCK.
I don't think Ican keep this relationship shit up very much longer, These people enjoy ruining my life more than usual.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Sun, 01 May 2005 18:41:39 GMT

I don't think I can handle this very much longer.
Seriously, Two weeks today I went insane with perfection. I dont' understand, I can't even remember the reason why.. But I can remember what I did so clearly, Got up pulled out all my dark clothes and shoved them in a bag, every single peice all shoved in a white garbage bag sitting by my dresser, I can't even touch the bag without a tear rolling down my cheek. So I leave it there, It ignores me and I ignore it there for I have no reason to throw it out. Then I ripped all the photo's and the pictures of Aura Fourty Seven off my wall and shoved them In my memory box.. That I won't touch either, And then I ran around my room and grabbed all my make up and devoted a whole drawer to makeup and hair... Then I pushed all my doubts away, got myself a boyfriend and started acting like I cared but really not.. Sometimes, there will be a moment where I'll get a bit upset but I push it away. Some nights I sit there and cry inside only to wake up the next day smiling batting my eyelashes and curling my hair. And some how I can't bring myself to find her, I can't find myself to be her. I can't find myself. But maybe it's for the best, maybe I'll just be Stephanie and forget Her, Betonia..

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Sun, 01 May 2005 15:09:56 GMT

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Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 23:20:11 GMT

Fucking Hell, I hate the visions I get these days..
Mara has really been fucking around with my head latley, I've been ignoring her and pushing her away for the last two weeks and she's found my weakness in everyway.
Sitting there then bam it pops into my head, all four of my weakness joined in hands. FUCK.
Then the pins.. Dammit Mara, please stop. You already know I'm going to dye.
Edit//
DEyam, I'm addicted to xanga again.. Sigh.. Well, I feel like this online journal is the only one that will listen to me at the moment.. Lol... Or Maybe I'm going backwards? Yeah.. Thats what I'm doing... Whatever...
I need new clothes.. and I NEED TO SEE ELIJAH. FUCK..
Shoot me..
I have come to the conclusion that my boyfriend is a dork.. Lol.. Why Do i always date dorks?
1. Josh, Sweet little corny dork. He's the cutes and the funnyest, but his voice and the way he acts is just. .Gaaahh DORRRK
2. Elena, Don't even get met started. Please.
3. Nalanie, Acts dorky. Lol
4. Elijah, Pisses on slides and does stupid things.. My god.. Stupid stupid.
Men are stupid, really stupid. I swear.. I prefer to date girls because they understand more but guuys are alright..

I don't think I'm going to go to the dance.. I don't think it's a good idea. Last time was really fucked up, I mean really messed. I found myself atleast five times for ten minutes straight standing there.. Just doing nothing, blank.. Blank. Blank..And it's really fucked over, I don't like it. I don't know.. And it probably wouldn't be a good idea for me to hang around Elijah since he will be around Alex and alex will be dancing with girls then me getting all depressed and blank then Elijah getting all depressed and blank and AHHHHGGG. I'll just go and hang out with a few girls and do some fun shit.. Aha ha ha <33
Little faggot.. Where playing "The hott game" and he gave Alison a ten and me a 9 or maybe a 10.. WTFFFF. Fagg..
HA HA so, he asked me inuyasha and I said 10, TAKE THAT BITTTCH TAKE THAT. I'm waiting for him to say Elena so I can beat his ass. Little fag.
Lol, I'm like one of those extremely preppy chicks for freak out over their boyfriend.. Lol

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 21:48:55 GMT

GRRRR, So I went shopping today. Fucking pissed, there was nothing good on sale. Fucking sucked assed, I really need new clothes. Hmmpph.
Soy milk kinda tastes funny, oh well.. I'll get used to it. Vegaaan! Wooh!
Because Even If I Dream Of You
The Sweetest Dream Will Never Do
Cuse' I Miss You Babe
And I Don't Wanna' Miss A Thing
I need to burn a cd fucking badly. Graw. I think I might go have a bath then a shower.. Need ta' relax.
I also need to see Elijah... Sigh..

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 16:49:02 GMT

//Song Lady Marmalade
//Thoughts Nothing
//Quote Come On Barbie! Lets Go Party!

Ahh, I'm so bored. I'm suppose to go shopping today but my mum is being an ass. Hmpph. Nothing new there, ah.. I should wash my hair today.. Try and wash the blue part of my hair out because it's icky.
Listening to some odd music, Barbie girl, Lady Marmalade, Would You, Next I'm Goign To Put In My Aqua Cd. He he. I love Aqua. Anyways,

I'ma' Go.. Update later ta ta. Muah. ;D

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 00:43:32 GMT

Song// Mr.BrightSide
Thought// Why Does Mr.BrightSide Make Me Cry..? :/
Quote// Macaroni PolarBear!

Ahhh! I need to re-dye my hair, theres still blue in it, Ihkk... I want my haie tottaly blonde, if not back to my normal hair colour with blonde streaks. I'm crazy about blonde at the moment. ;D
You know what I hate? when everyone makes fun of Ailish, I don't think it makes Ailish mad but it pisses me off. Ailish is a really calm person and doesn't really give a fuck, she's so pretty though. Gosh, I love her hair and her clothes. That rich little hoe, Tee hee.. I wish I was friend with her.
I need new fucking pants! My shank and Miss 60 pants are fucked over, I drew all over them. Uh, Ihk? and I need better skirts, this weekend I'ma going to buy a new pair a pants and new skirts and hopefully some halter tops and shat. Also need some booty shorts, Ha ha. Jazzy Shizzle eh?
Hey I'm seeing Elijah this weekend, I wanna' sneak some alone time with him.. If You know what I mean, not sex ass holes.
I also need some scar removes, My legs are discusting and scard.